10 September 2010

Cross Road Dilemma

I don’t know about the average person on the street, but I get to cross roads in my life every two years. Now it would be OK if your cerebellum had a built in GPS navigator (to indicate the obstacles and shortest route to success), scanner/printer (so it could print you a report on the pros and cons of the different options) and a mini-crystal ball (to predict the outcome of the unsure future). Then I woke up and my coffee was cold … needless to say the GPS, scanner/printer and crystal ball is not part of the unique physique of my bodwa.

One always sit and wonders if you are the only living organism wondering how different your life would have been if you took Option B instead of the Option A that looked so appealing at the time. “Take the road less travelled” ….what bullshit!! They want you to take the road less travelled so you can be eaten by hungry animals along the way …clear all the weeds and make a pretty garden while you at it … so they don’t have deal with those obstacles when they take the road. But because I fall in the category of humans that cannot withstand a good challenge I fall in the trap.

The thing is I don’t want to be one of those bitter old queens that hate the world and everything on it because of the path I have chosen (and if you are honest we all know at least 3 Bitter Bessy Queens who fit this description). Don’t get me wrong I have made some good and bad choices in my life – and when I think about it, I would actually not change one thing. Maybe that is an answer in itself… even when I realised that I have made the wrong choice – I persevere and make the best of it …and don’t tell a living soul (smile and wave boys ...smile and wave lol).

At the end of the day I think you either have a survivor attitude or a victim-attitude. I have never been known to play the victim-role very convincingly…something a think I got from my gran (awesome, strong lady).

I think at the end of the day the only thing that really matters is that you choose a road and make it work as best you can…and not procrastinate in making decisions. Wow this post has just saved me a trip to my psychologist and about R900 in consultation fees…

Life is beautiful!

The ‘Come Back’

WOW! What an amazing, nerve wrecking, rollercoaster-induced ride the past few months has been. The 2010 FWC came to SA and went of without any major incidents. All the long hours and preparations … all to show the world we have what it takes.

Seeing that my last post was such a long time ago, I was pondering what to write as a “come-back” story. In the mental state I am currently it might take another year – so that idea has been pushed under the carpet …and the TV cabinet were moved very gracefully on top of the carpet.

Alas I have gone through some mind-altering experiences, met some amazing and inspiring people, and will probably never be the same. So the only thing to do is to get back in the saddle and use what we have learned to improve day-on-day.

So sit back, fasten your seatbelts and enjoy the ride…